On My Own Pretending Hes Beside Me.

Ok so its been a couple of weeks since my last post and nothing much as really happend since then. Although I have completed most of my classes, I only have one final left and thats my Inro to Homeland Security final, I'll be taking that on monday.

I'm fairly pleased with myself! The papers that I was working on in my last post did well! I got a perfect A on my paper about Pedophiles for my Corrections class, and I think it would be about an A- or a B on my Teenage sex and drug use paper.

As from that all I can say is that nothing much has happend.

I'm reading the Lord of the Rings, maybe I've already menttioned it but I don't remember, I've gotten through the first half of Fellowship, which is pretty much the furthest I had ever gotten in the books before. But I am really enjoying it! I never was able to in high school because it was to far above my reading skill.

Well so contiues the ThankBondMass holliday, I'm currently watching The Spy Who Loved Me. Its one of my least favorites, I find it boaring and usualy fall asleep durring the movie.

Oh Nicole is here now untill I think it was the 22nd of January!

I helped my sister cassie move into her new appartment a few weeks back, and that really sucked! It was just the 2 of us doing absolutly everything, he exboyfriend didn't lift a fricken hand. It pissed me off.

It snowed lots too, well not a lot but a fare amount. The roads in the city suck you can't even see the lines on the road.

My kitty Frodo has been really cuddly lately. I love him so much!

I've been feeling really lonely lately. I wish they gave a class on how to meet good gay guys. when I say they I mean anybody. It just really sucks ass! It seems that all of the guys that I end up liking are usualy straight. It must be something about their personalty that attracts me I don't know why though. Its just sickening sitting in my bedroom in the basment of my parents house soing nothing night after night, and day after day.

On that note I am reminded of something that has been bugging me for a little while now. It conserns my friends Holly and Jayson. They seem to be drifting even more off into a corner from me. Its really upsetting. If I didn't go to D&D every other sunday I probably would never even hear from them. More so thats pissing me off is Dusty, on the last game day I found out that they (Holly, Jayson, and Dusty) went down to the cities and saw the Rocky Horror Picture Show. Now I can understand if it was a last munite thing and they just took off and didn't think to think of me, No what pisses me off is that the went when a month before on Halloween they couldn't afford to go see it..... Its like Dusty is trying to muzzle people out of their lives, or mor specificly Holly's life, for I even feel that hes trying to get Jayson out of the picture. IDK Maybe its that I have become more mature than they currently are or something. Even though I don't consider myself more mature than them, I've just decided to try and do something different with my life. I can't help if they don't understad or don't like it. I think thats why these two kids that I met at MCTC are becoming my new best friends. I'm not saying that they are my best friends, we are still in the new friendship area. But Eva and Max are just cool they are relaxed, not as on edge as Holly and Jayson have become.

I'm sick of this poor me shit that I've been doing. I'm just upset that I feel that I'm lossing my best friend and that I feel increadably alone.

bye.
JD

I don't know half of you half as well as I should like; and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve.