Spring Break Small Town Minnesota Edition.

Well I've had a rather interesting spring break if you can really call it that. Well Spring Break for me began not last Monday but a week ago last Thursday. And the reason for that being that I always have Thursday and Friday off from school anyway. So I really only had 3 days off from school and really wish that it had been longer.

So that Thursday was kinda interesting I suppose, in the afternoon I went to go hang out with Joe and it was a pretty usual day with Joe, his bootlegged copy of Windows 7 had to be reinstalled, it seems like every time I go over there he has some problem going on with his computer. And Joe usually gets pissed at something not working right and it gets kind of uncomfortable to hang out with him when he does. But we went out to Shooters that night for some more Karaoke, and I must say that I love that place and the people that I've met and have come to refer to as a mutual friends. Although I don't think its really a place for Joe he always seems so awkward there, perhaps its better for just Emily and Myself.

Well pretty much nothing happened on Friday and Saturday that I can remember anyway. Although I spent the night over at Joe's again on Saturday because he wanted to show me this crazy ass church that he found in Elk River. The Church is called the Crossing, and it was . . . interesting to say the least. I'm not totally sure as to how I felt about it, but I do know that I felt uncomfortable because the pastor kept staring at me. Its like he automatically knew that I was the nonbeliever in the crowd. But it was a very different church service than any that I have ever been too, they had a Christian rock band playing before the sermon and the whole sermon was about tattoos and how god had your name tattooed on his hands. Of course the catch was that in order to get into heaven, was to get onto gods hand and you could only do that by pledging your life to him. So yeah I was kind of uncomfortable. Joe took the pledge prayer, and I say it like its an occult because thats what it kind of felt like, but I was glad for Joe because I really do respect the morals and what not of Christianity, its just the people that I tend to have a problem with.

After we got back from the service and I had informed Joe that no I am not a christian and simply went because he asked me to. We went back to his place and he "gave me" a copy of the Sims 3. And let me just tell you that that game is freaking amazing but I got pissed because my Sims lover adopted a kid! And that kid is a little asshole I hate that kid! And I feel fine about hating a kid because its a video game, a very very addicting video game. So spent a lot of time playing it on Monday to from what I remember. But It was so nice out on Monday that I had to go on a bike ride!

Now I have like 4 papers looming in the near future that I need to get done, so when I went for my bike ride on Monday I had an agenda which is always nice instead of just aimless peddling. I went over to the local library, to search for some research material on the paper that I'm writing for my Ethics class (that I just found out I failed the midterm to, and I mean I really failed that shit!). I decided to write on the topic of whether or not it can be found ethical for church organizations and churches to help homosexual people try and change/ suppress their sexual orientation. Of course I take a negative stance on the subject. I've been getting kinda pissed though because I haven't been able to really find anything put out there from churches or other supporting it. Oh well. But I found this one book that I've been reading now thats fairly interesting its called Stranger At The Gate by Mel White. Its about a very Christian man who became a pastor and in the late 80's or early 90's came out of the closet. Its just primarily about his life and trying to deal with Homosexuality and being Christian in America. I have to say that the combination between this book and the crazy church, has been brewing up some mixed feelings and at this moment in time I'm not so sure as to what my religion is as where I almost been so certain.

Tuesday was spent reading this book and well part of Wednesday, but on Wednesday I was more concerned with getting my green on because it was St. Patrick's Day! In the mid afternoon I took my bike into the bank to get some cash to go out that night, well turns out that MCTC its a gigantic Douche. On my previous statement from my bank I had like 40 bucks still in my account and this was just after I had moved more money from my savings into my checking in order to not overdraft. So I went out to see a movie Alice in Wonderland (I'm sure y'all remember my rant on that movie from the last blog) and then I rented some movies. and like 5 bucks to get me into the parking garage at school that put me down to about 2 or 3 dollars in my checking, still above over drafting. Well that was until MCTC charged me for some lunches that I bought back in February. I was so pissed because that sent me into over drafting and I had yet again no idea and my bank has a very shitty reputation of not telling you when you overdraft. So 80 some dollars in overdraft fees later I'm flat broke I now have no money in my checking or my savings.

My Dad was nice enough to give me some money to go out and party that night though, and boy did I party! I went out to the Saloon with Shaka the black guy I told y'all about last time. Well some of my others friends showed up there too! Zeek and Orin came and we all hung out, drank, conversed, and all around had a good time. I was intoxicated but not nearly to the point that I have been before. I had my usual of whiskey and coke, now I asked for Windsor but apparently thats to much of a hick/straight liquor for a gay bar. So they gave me some kinda nasty whiskey instead. But on top of that I also had my first Appletini as well as my first Guinness, I rather like the Guinness. After the bar closed we went out to a Denny's, where we had less than medioce food. And then because I was intoxicated I spent the night at Shaka's house. I got like next to no sleep what so ever. Not that other things where going on because they weren't, but because I was on a rock hard futon and at like 7 in the morning the rest of his family were up and getting ready for school/work. It was nuts. But I did get some sleep after they had left, just to wake up at like 11. So I got no more than 4 hours of sleep that day. Shaka and me talked for a few hours and then he took me to my car and I went to go pick up Max.

Max and I had set up that he was going to come over to my house on Thursday and spend the night. so his house was fairly easy to get to seeing has how I had already been in the cites and he lives in Hopkins. It was a blast hanging out with Max! We played SmashBro's which he beat may ass in, but that very understandable seeing as how he only plays it competitively.  I have to admit that I didn't really know what to do for him because well Cambridge isn't the most exciting town in the world. But after my parents went to be we played the newly bought Wii Fit Plus which was good for a few laughs, then he showed me a very ridiculous web cite called Chatroulette, where we gave shit to many people and saw quite a few penises. We watched some vids on youtube and then I for the second night in a row went to be at 4 in the morning. but this time I got up at like 10 so I got like 6 hours that day. . . which still wasn't enough. But I made pancakes which I usually do for friends who stay the night at my place. After we had eaten we played more Smash and then watched more youtube vids. And before I forget to mention we discovered the amazingness of the fucked up singer Tiny Tim! I'll post a vid of him on here seriously hes amazing! Well after all of this it was time to return Max to Hopkins. I thought it would be easy as pie to get him back home... I was wrong. I thought that if I took 169 from Princeton that it would stay 169 all the way down. NOPE it turns into 101 and then into nothing at all. So we had to do some back tracking to get on to 94 from 101 and then I took the wrong exit on to 494 instead of 694/94 so yep we had to back track again to 94 then onto 169 again... Then I found out on my way back home that it was all unnecessary because 169 turns into 47 in Anoka and 47 will take you right up to 5 which is just a short jog over to 7 which brings you right up over to my house. . . But it was crazy cuz Max was kinda freaking out the whole time going back to his house because he has a slight fear of getting lost.

I passed out at like 7 on Friday night because I was so sleepy, then yesterday I slept for awhile trying to catch up on sleep.

And today I had to do another stupid ass study guide for Ethics class that I had completely forgotten about, I had like 4 things I had to read for it so it took like all day to do, but at least I got it done. It was a bit easier to understand because we are finally out of the dumbass Theory section and finally into the actually application of Ethics.

Blah! this one was kinda long.....

I might be getting together with my friend Nat from Camp Courage. I'm really excited about it because I've come to realize somethings that I didn't at the time about my feelings towards Nat. I knew that I liked him in more than a friend way, but I kinda pushed those feelings away because I thought it was just because every one else was getting into relationships and that I had went into camp expecting to get into a relationship to. But I now realize that I really did fall in love with him. I don't care if he is straight, or repressing his sexuality because of his religion, or what ever it is that he is. I just know that I fell in love with him and I need to come to terms with that and I need some kind of closer or something. And to Nat who I know reads this I'm sorry I this makes you feel uncomfortable I just wanted to get that out there, and I have no intention to pursue anything other than friendship from you, unless otherwise approved by you. Also the things that I wanted to talk about were the mixed up religious feelings that I've been having.


So long y'all
JD

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