On My Own Pretending Hes Beside Me.

Ok so its been a couple of weeks since my last post and nothing much as really happend since then. Although I have completed most of my classes, I only have one final left and thats my Inro to Homeland Security final, I'll be taking that on monday.

I'm fairly pleased with myself! The papers that I was working on in my last post did well! I got a perfect A on my paper about Pedophiles for my Corrections class, and I think it would be about an A- or a B on my Teenage sex and drug use paper.

As from that all I can say is that nothing much has happend.

I'm reading the Lord of the Rings, maybe I've already menttioned it but I don't remember, I've gotten through the first half of Fellowship, which is pretty much the furthest I had ever gotten in the books before. But I am really enjoying it! I never was able to in high school because it was to far above my reading skill.

Well so contiues the ThankBondMass holliday, I'm currently watching The Spy Who Loved Me. Its one of my least favorites, I find it boaring and usualy fall asleep durring the movie.

Oh Nicole is here now untill I think it was the 22nd of January!

I helped my sister cassie move into her new appartment a few weeks back, and that really sucked! It was just the 2 of us doing absolutly everything, he exboyfriend didn't lift a fricken hand. It pissed me off.

It snowed lots too, well not a lot but a fare amount. The roads in the city suck you can't even see the lines on the road.

My kitty Frodo has been really cuddly lately. I love him so much!

I've been feeling really lonely lately. I wish they gave a class on how to meet good gay guys. when I say they I mean anybody. It just really sucks ass! It seems that all of the guys that I end up liking are usualy straight. It must be something about their personalty that attracts me I don't know why though. Its just sickening sitting in my bedroom in the basment of my parents house soing nothing night after night, and day after day.

On that note I am reminded of something that has been bugging me for a little while now. It conserns my friends Holly and Jayson. They seem to be drifting even more off into a corner from me. Its really upsetting. If I didn't go to D&D every other sunday I probably would never even hear from them. More so thats pissing me off is Dusty, on the last game day I found out that they (Holly, Jayson, and Dusty) went down to the cities and saw the Rocky Horror Picture Show. Now I can understand if it was a last munite thing and they just took off and didn't think to think of me, No what pisses me off is that the went when a month before on Halloween they couldn't afford to go see it..... Its like Dusty is trying to muzzle people out of their lives, or mor specificly Holly's life, for I even feel that hes trying to get Jayson out of the picture. IDK Maybe its that I have become more mature than they currently are or something. Even though I don't consider myself more mature than them, I've just decided to try and do something different with my life. I can't help if they don't understad or don't like it. I think thats why these two kids that I met at MCTC are becoming my new best friends. I'm not saying that they are my best friends, we are still in the new friendship area. But Eva and Max are just cool they are relaxed, not as on edge as Holly and Jayson have become.

I'm sick of this poor me shit that I've been doing. I'm just upset that I feel that I'm lossing my best friend and that I feel increadably alone.

bye.
JD

I don't know half of you half as well as I should like; and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve.

A Kansas City Shuffle.

Well yesterday was my favorite holliday! THANKSGIVING! I like it because its like christmas, without all of the bullshit. And its where you freely express what you are truly thankful for TURKEY! No I'm just kidding, although I do make on hell of a turkey! What I am thankful for this year... gee I don't really know. I really mean that I don't really know what to be thankful for this year. I gess I'm thankful for all of the sweet distractions in life that actually make it all worth while. There is that good? Well we had my Uncle Terry and Aunt Lila, and my Cousins Emily, Ross and Laura and their little boy Waylon over for dinner. Cassie my sister came home too, she made pie! It was a good time, good food, and I love my 2nd cousin! He is so damn adorible! He is a total Swanson too, you can just see it, he looks like Ross and me. I made my Martha Stewart Scarbero Fair turkey, thats what I call it because you rub a Parsley, Sage, Rosemarry, and Tyme mixture under the skin.

Phase 1 of the turkey, just prepared for cooking!    

Phase 2, about half way through cooking.

Phase 3, Done and ready to be eaten!

Today I'm trying to do one of my reserch papers. I had tryed doing it on wensday but it was just horrid! I couldn't use it it was crap. But this version is way better! I'm writing down on paper first so when I type it its more like a final draft. but it seems to be working out that way better any way. Tomorrow I'll work on my corrections one, that one might take a little longer, seeing has how 2 of my sorces were shit and have to find 2 more, but if its anything like today was it'll be a sinch.

So I took Hailey and her boyfriend Joey out to see New Moon last friday. It was damn good! I was really suprised. the first one was just horse shit! I think its one of the worst movies I've ever seen in my life. So yeah New Moon was good, way better than the book was! Now I'm not saying that it was Oscar worthy or anything like that, some of the actors need to get some formal training or somthing cuz they just bad! But the quality of the movie was excalent! I need to find out who directed it cuz it was fantastic. The look and feel of it was more earth bound, like Twilight is saposed to be. The music was fantastic and thats what really sold me. It really tyed the whole movie together, so I went out on saturday and bought the damn soundtrack, and haven't stopped listening to it all week.

I don't really have much else to say today.

bub bye!

JD

Home is behind and the world ahead, and there are many paths to tred, earth and shadow cloud and flame, away shall fade a way shall fade.

If You Touch Me There...

Today I thought I would talk a little bit about my love life. Seeing as how I don't have one there wont be much to talk about. Well it was kind of that that I wanted to talk about. Actualy more or less what I specificaly wanted to talk about is my taste in men.

Ever since I was a little kid I've had a strange fiasination with the Native American culture. As I grew up it started to spark of an interest well sexualy.... I've had an interest in the native american man for some time now. The thing is when I think of having a family in the future in my mind my suginificant other is usualy a man of Native American Ethnicity. Now as all people these fantasys always diminish and come back. Their like waves  on a sea rolling in and back out.

Now I've done the whole online dating website thing with no avail. All the guys seem fake and are always so god damn steriotyoical! I mean seriously do you actualy think that thats atractive? Sure they maybe good looking but their personality is horrendus! well anyway. I always find myself looking at eather the Asians or ofcourse the Native Americans. Now the last site I was on was OKCupid. It really sucked ass. All of the "Native Americans" wern't actualy Native Americans. Some how they got it into their minds that seeing how their great great great grandfather was means that they are (pardon the semirasist term) full blooded. In my opineon having a certain Ethnicity in your lineage dose not make you that ethnicity, unless it is a direct liniage, in other words your parents.

But to all my searches there never seems to be that one guy that I'm waiting for, the one that I keep thinking about day in and day out. Lately I've been thinking that I won't ever find him.

But then again lately I've been having some conflicktions in my life regarding the direction my life is going in. Right now becoming a Writer and living up in Grand Marais seems to be the right path, or at least a very tempting one. I've even started some miniscule writings.

I think this has all come about from those damned Twilight Books! Just the thought of the character of Jacob Black has me smilling. I know its fucking rediculus, and I'm acting like a god damned school girl. but hey! Have you read the books i know they are nothing to be desired, but Jacob is fricking hot!, not mention amazing!, and hes Native American and one who holds on to his heiratige very strongly, and to me that is the most atractive thing a person can do.

I have a high regaurd for my own heiratige, I love that I came from Vikings and I were a symbol of it around my neck everyday. Its a part of who I am.

The ThankBondMass is going slowly. What can I say I have to do school shit too! Well I just got done watching Goldfinger and almost through with the book. I like the book much better ofcorse, all of the Bond books are better than the movies, except From Russia With Love, its pretty much the same damn thing! although they did change up the ending a bit but still freeking amazing! How do you like the title of the blog? I thought it was appropraite for this one. Its actualy Chapter 13 in Goldfinger and it suits the other theams of the blog. blah blah blah. well I think this is enough ranting don't you? I sure do.

But first before we go. Pics of Hot Native American men! come on seriously you can't denigh it.

ok first 2 are Twilight the other wont be.

Well bye bye for now everybody. ;)

"My name is Pussy Galore".... "I must be dreaming!"

A Total Eclipse of the Heart.

Halloween! Ok so Halloween was a week ago now, and I had a blast! I went out to Shooters with Emily (formaly refered to as Elizabeth), Ross and Laura. I wasn't sure how well that was going to be seeing as how my origonal plan was to go down to the Twin Cities. But my infernal cousin Joe decided that he did want to do ANYTHING! that night. And seeing has how he was Mulder to my Scully plans were changed. More or less I was also in a bad mood, but then getting a couple of drinks into me things lightend up pretty quickly. Emily's costume was hilarious she was Flo from the Pegressive Insurance comercals. She even won the costume contest.

The weekend before that was pretty darn fun too! On that occasion Joe actualy went out with us. We went out to Shanan and Moose's house, for their anual Halloween party.

Well now its been a week, and all of this seems rather boring to write about.

D&D!!!! I almost forgot to mention it! I had another round of gameplay last sunday. It was the most fun that I have had doing it and am certanly going to continue to play. It turned out that our Dungeon Master Matt was starting the campaine over again. So that means we had to create all new characters, aside from the Drou ones that we had made previously. I made a human monk, not to far of a streach than the Drou monk that I created before. But I think that its much funner starting with lvl 1 characters. I named the new guy Carlisle after the lead vampire in the Twilight saga.

Ever since then I've kept thinking of the Twilight books, I had read Twilight and New Moon, but New Moon wasn't all that great so I didn't really see the need to continue. That is again untill this past week. I had already been reading Sphere by Michael Crichton, but on friday I put that one on hold for now. And I don't think it will be to long before I'm back to it. Because on friday I started reading Eclipse, the 3rd book in the series. Its only been 3 days and I've already cleared 266 pages, but it goes by fast. I'm overly in love with the Werewolfs in the story, Meyer really created a better Werewolf lore than she did vampire. I just get so happy when Jacob Black is around.

School as been well school... I have some major reaserch papers due in under a month and I still have to go over the information so as i can start writing them.

You know I've been thinking about this blog, I enjoy writing it because it gets some of the things that I've been thinking or bottleing up out in the open. but is anybody even reading it? I seend out an email to my friends when ever I write a new one but now one usualy responds. I know that Nicole reads it, and I read her blog too, although she hasn't written one in a long while.

I never got all of thouse movies watched in time, just another failure on my part. but its one that I really don't care aobut so it dosn't bother me.

Today I am starting one of my most favorite times of the year in movie terms. I like to call it ThankBondMass! its a bout a 2 month celebration in which I watch all of the James Bond movies in order. not all at once of corse its spred over the 2 months that incompasses Thanksgiving, and the Hollidays (Christmas, Hannika, Kwanza, and New Years). I'm watchin Dr. No right now.

Well I do beleve that that will be all for today.

SoLong!
JD

For your eyes only darling.

Remember remember the fifth of November.

Most all of my friends know about the legendary Guy Fawks mainly from the movie V for Vendetta. But seldom of my friends know that on this day the fifth of November which is famous for the gunpowder treason and plot, don't know that nine years ago I had the most tramatic experiance of my life. For me the fifth on november shall never be forgot. I'm having trouble putting it down on here as to what happend. Its something that is very privet for me and I don't openly talk about it. I seldom get a day where this event dosn't haunt my dreams and innermost thoughts.

His name was Norman Swanson, he was my grandfather and today the only one I call my true grandfather. I was 12. I haven't been to his grave in nine years, I should have done that today. But I didn't and why? Because I'm one of thouse people that are slightly OCD I have to do things on intervles of 5. If I celebrate something its usualy on an intervle of 5. So in my head the ninth year of my grandfather's death isn't as significant as the tenth would be. thats completly horrable. Forgive me.

My Grandma Swanson, Aunt Debbie, Cousins Mandy and Joe (reffered to as James previously), and myself stood witness to his transformation from physical to energy. It was not a pleasant passing to say the least. I think thats all I say on that.

I'll talk about Halloween and all that stuff on a diferent blog, but this one gose out to my grandfather.

I miss you grandpa
Love Jake.

See ya'll next time
JD

I know of no reason why the gunpowder treason should ever be forgot.

The Bells Will Never Be Ringing For Me.

Well well well, it seems like I have a lot to say today. Although at the moment it all seems like its plugged up inside my head. So I'll start off with the basics.

I'm watching a movie. Its the Hitcher the remake from what I understand. Its not all that interesting at all. On the hole its rather boring. But its on my list of 13 movies for Halloween. This one is the second, the first one was Salem's Lot. The new one with Rob Low its fairly decent.

the list:

Salem's Lot

the Hittcher

Jurassic Park

Skeliton Key

From Hell

Signs

Interview With the Vampire

Silent Hill
the Rocky Horror Picture Show
The Craft

Black Sheep

The Brotherhood

War of the Worlds

Hopefuly I can get through them all by Halloween.

I'm tired of using false names so I'm gunna start using the real names of people. All of these will come out eventualy through time.

This last weekend was the wedding of my cousin Ross to his long time feance and baby mama Laura. Now Ross and Laura are particularaly red neck. So the whole family was expecting the wedding to have a redneck flair. Indeed it did but not to any of our expectations. It was held out in the middle of noware and out side to boot. It was actually a really lovely wedding and I am super happy for them too.

Weddings make me depressed. Its something that I really want, but its something that I can't have. Thanks a lot president Obama thank you so god damn much! Thanks for NOTHING! Thanks for making prommises to the Homosexual community and backing out on them. Thanks for being yet another president that just dosn't give a fuck about me.

And just for the record... I voted for Nader.

I've decided that I'm not going back to camp next summer.

It started out like this. I got it into my head that it would be super kick ass to visit some of the national parks like on a road trip. But there was a problem with that. I don't have any money, and seeing how finding a job isn't working out so well a road trip was out of the question. so next I thought I could just work at Yellowstone over the summer! Well today after thinking long and hard about things I've decided to change things. I still would love to be in the FBI but is it right for me? Would I really even get in? I don't know. So today I applyed to Yellowstone. To change my life. I didn't do it as a "seasonal" thing eather. I applyed for a full time position. I'm going set it so I can finish this term and hopefully start working in Febuary or so. If I don't get hired then I'll just keep doing what I am now. Its as simple as that.

Theres no more. nothing left to say.
JD.

I am what I am. I am my own special creation.

Santa is that you???

I woke up today to an unplesant sight, SNOW! Now we had some snow over the weekend too, but that was more of a slight dusting. Today on the other hand we have snow! I just hope the roads arn't horrid today for my drive down to school.

This weekend was pretty fun though! Nothing much happend on Friday was just on the forum like the whole night. Saturday was better. That night James and I went to St. Paul to the Ramsey County Fair Grounds where the Sheriff's department there was putting on a Huanted House. It was actually really fun! James and the rest of the group had me going first though the maze that was the haunted house, I kept laughing because I was seeing every actor before they jumped out. Well after that we headed back to Cambridge and picked up some drinks. We met up with Lynn (a friend of both mine and James who we both havn't seen in some time) and a few of her friends. When we got there the rest of the party was fairly well tanked up already, and after a whole six pack of rassbarry smirnoff ice so was I. The person's whos appartment we were partying in I had known in high school. Although we had never talked in high school I always knew of her condition. Her name is Kathrin and when she was younger she had cancer. I knew all of that, but what I didn't know is that she used to go to Camp Courage! I found this out whilest browsing around her appartment, she had a picture sitting out of her and some of the counselors out at the basketball court.

After I had asked her about it she had to rush off and grab the rest of her picktures ffrom camp. Well a little while later we were playing some party games, one of them was spoons, where every one has to grab a spoon when you get four of a kind. Well Kathrin decided seeing as how they where all her spoons that she needed to protect them so she stuffed a few into her bra inventing the Boobspoon. The rest of the night she wouldn't let thouse boobspoons go eather. There was also a guy there and he was super cute! although a bit to younng for my blood. but by then I was pretty well toaked and I was all over him. His hair was really soft.

Sunday I just kinda layed around which was fine by me, I watched some XFiles and that was about it. But seriously SNOW!!!!!! WTF?????

X-Files, Paranormal Societys, and Forums... OH MY!

Monday was kinda interesting, but not by much this week. Actually by very little other than that I was browsing the bullitin boards at school and saw a flyer for a Paranormal Society that was getting set up at the school. I Rushed off to the computer lab to imedeatly send them a message that I was indeed very interested in joining. My class was needless to say pretty darn boring and I kept falling asleep.

Tuseday was much better in seeing that I was excitedly awaiting news from the paranormal groop. I had also stopped at the local Library to pick up some audiobooks (drivning and hour down to the cities and an hour back home 3 days a week is really fucking boaring). I was overjoyed to find that they had a X-Files book on tape there! It was only 3 hours long so needless to say I finished it on wensday driving down to school. I wouldn't give it any high marks or anything like that, it was written buy an author that I have read before and I'm not all to impressed with his work. It was called X Files: Ruins so if you see it stay away, but if you're really that board go for it. I also picked up Stephen King's amazing second novel Salem's Lot. That one is like 15 disks long! so it should take me awhile to get through that one.

Tuseday night I was talkin' with Eve and I mentioned the Paranormal groop, seeing as how they had gotten back to me, and I also mentioned that the first meeting was on Wensday at 2, well her and Lill decied to come on with me to school!

So we met up with the founder and cofounder at the School. It turns out that thats all the more people we were going to get that day, but we talked for quiet awhile! Phantom the founder was very interesting she is one of thouse up front kinda people. but my attention was more so directed twords the little cutie pie that was the cofounder, his name was Aristocat, and boy do I want to pet that kitty!

Anyway I'm being a total Forum Whore at the moment, because we (thouse of us in the paranormal society) have our own forum to post many things in regards twords the paranormal. Its very exciting.

I've also been trying to down this book that I have to read for school, its called NEWJACK by Ted Conover, and its like really good! The writing is amazing and story is interesting but its slow too so yeah.

well that pretty much it for this week ladies! talk at cha laterz!

The Truth is Out There!

Tiz the Season for ZOMBIES!!!!

 In my family there is nothing better or more satisfactory than horror. It seemes to be some kind of genetic coding that gets passed on from generatinon to generation. We just love to be scared, but even more to scare others. My father for example is completly demented doing any thing and everything to scare us. These efforts no longer effect me however, but then again they don't say the phrase "like father like son" for nothing. Yes I admitt I have acuired my dad's delinquency for horror.

When I was little after the family would be out somewhere on the ride home my dad was the most cinical. Often he would pretend that the car had died in the middle of our the backwoods country dirt road, claiming that it was due to a UFO that was possibly going to abduct us. This had lasting tramatic effects on my sister who to this day can't even hear the word UFO or Aliens with out getting a least a goosebump. Me on the other had I was scared but even more I wanted to see it! I still want to see these little green men that my dad convinced us were going abduct us. So the UFO one was fairly common another one he would do was pull in to this little road that led off to some dear hunting land where there was a little crick (its simmilar to a stream, but kinda bigger) that we had found some dead dogs in one summer, anyway, my dad often told me of the Red Eyed Monster that was as tall as the tallest trees and had glowing red eyes and it would eat any weary traviler. Well on this particular occasion it was the Red Eyed Monster that was going to get us this time, and that freeked me out even more than the Alieins.

In their youth my dad and my aunts and uncle used to torment eachother with horror. Which all turned out to be my favorite storys about my family. The Godfather of the family's horror obsession is nonother than my Grandma, who was the only person who could ever scare a person while they tried to scare her, or else laugh and go grab the camera to capture the moment of cuitness. Well when my dad was little Grandma decided that it would be a good idea to take him to his first movie the origingal The Night of the Living Dead. Eversince Zombies have topped as my Dad's favorite monsters.

This last weekend a new zombie movie came out called ZOMBIELAND I had seen the preveiw with my cousin James and we decided that it was a movie that we had to see. Well ofcourse Dad had to go see it too. Unfortuanatly it didn't meet his expectations as a zombie flick, but it did as a comidy, because it was so fucking hillarious! NO SERIOUSLY! It was really really funny! But apparently this month or week or what ever has to be filled with zombies because I just picked up a new book on friday called Pride and Prejudice and Zombies. I have already read a bit in it, its pretty funny seeing as how the author took the original Jane Austen book and made it into a Zombie fest. and I honestly  belive that if you want to get a guy to read Jane Austen give him this book. Because we just don't get Jane Austen its dull and lovey, and has undertones of a strong womens movement. Its like 19th cesntury Twilight, if it dosn't have blood, guts, sex, or guns in it we kinda just zone out and toss it to the side, and trust me ladies this dose include the gays too, seeing as how I am one I can say that.... the exception I sapose would be the ones who are pretty much women already but don't have the vag yet.

Well I had D&D last night again, it was a bit more boreing last night we didn't acomplish much, just died. Yes We all died. well not Lill he was sent to "heaven", and this one guy I forget his name... lets call him hummmm..... whats a big fat guys name?????...... we'll call him Bob, Bob didn't die eather he shapeshifted into a bird and flew away while the rest of us turned into stone. So that all happend rather quickly so we took the rest of the night to come up with new characters and watched Zack and Miri Make a Porno which was super funny by the way. Plus I got to see Jason Mewes's penis that was fairly exciting. You know him more commonly as Jay from Jay and silent bob. anyway good movie.

I also got an email saying that my application for TSA (Transportation Security Agency) was finaly done being prosessed and was now able to be veiwed and considered for the job.... I submitted that app almost a month ago! seriously! Oh well I hope I get an interview any way. but I also dropped apps off around the downtown area of Minneapolis. I did them at Barns and Noble, The MN Store, Applebee's, someother highend resturant that I don't remember the name of at the moment, and and Buco di Beppo's! I really hope that eather the MN store, Buco, or TSA calls.

Well lovers nothing more to report here so long!


Jesus was a Zombie you know!

Randomly titled blog post.

I know its been 10 days since my last post, but bloging has been put on the back burner to studying and other things. So I sapose an update is in order! Nothing has really happend. sorry. I did start playing D&D with Eve and Lill in one of their friends campaigns, it was interesting not really that fun at first, but I started geting into it.

Have I ever mentioned Eve and Lill before? I don't think I have really. Ofcorse Eve and Lill arn't their real names, Eve is my bestfriend and Lill is her feaunce, who is male. The reasone I her Eve is becuse it was her original world of warcraft characters name, although she goes by it like all the time any way so Eve, and Lill is her boys character's name from WoW. Me and Eve have been friends for.... god I think its going on like 12 or 13 years now. we've bee together longer than most couples. Anyway we met durring recess on the second day of our fifth grade year. I don't even remember what year that was.

Have yous guys heard this band called Whore's Mascara? I was introduced to them via......well I'm not at librity to comment at the moment. . But anyway they are pretty good, at first its kinda like WTF??? but it gets in your head and just rattles around in there.

Last weekend it was the city wide garage sale in my town and I went scowaring around town for a bookshelf, but I didn't have any luck, I did find a neat old type fan for like 3 bucks! Its super loud and blows like a well trained hooker! But it is just really loud to run for to long.

So I have a little crushy on this guy in my Intro to Corrections class, he looks like he could be middle eastern or Indian (dot not feather). I don't know what his name is, what can I say I'm shy, but at least he is some really good eye candy. Hes probably straight too, I always end up likeing the straight ones. Its getting to be a bit frustrating. Like a few of the guys at camp I had major crushes on too but they where straight as well. Most notably from my camp crushes was the little church boy (which was so odd for me falling for this guy seeing as thouse people typicly annoy the shit out of me, you know the ones, they were home schooled and have a huge family and preach at you all night and day).  Anyway again not really inprortant just oh well.

OMG! I lauphed my ass off today listening to one of Wanda Wisdom's shows! I'll have to post a link to this show it was the best one she's done in a while. She is completly obsessed with this word "Bung CHOW!" fucking hilarious!
http://www.lavendermagazine.com/wandawisdom/2009/09/23/lbr913-bung-chow-hit-parade/

Well thats really all I've got to talk about with yous guys today. have a good one!

love
JD!

BUNG CHOW!

Thats Life. well kinda.

 Have you ever had thoughs days where your just wondering why you should care about this shit? Because I think I'm having one of thoughs today.

 Today was a studyish day for me. I didn't really get to much done, yet I did at the same time. Its kinda odd in a way. Well its more like I've gotten a lot done for 2 of my classes, but not the other 2. Really when you give me a regular book to read for a text book I'm not going to just breaze right through it, thats not how I work..... tipicly. I mean there was a time at the begining of the year that I breazed through like 4 or 5 books in a matter of 2 weeks. But even so that was the middle of winter and I didn't have other things to focus on, or to distract me, or to miss so so much. But there are now I gess... ok not really...... I mean I do have a lot on my plate right now but truth be told I'm not utalizing my time like I should be. Well that and my Homeland Security book sucks some major ass crack! Its saposed to be an introduction book but it is packed full of figures and numbers and dates and acts and all of this other shit! And it just repeats its self over and over and over again. Its a readers nightmare, it might be a scanner's too but I'm not one so I can't say that for sure.

 I was able to get through the shit about the god damnd PATRIOT act, althought it did have some actual readable content from newspaper articals in it. One was by this crazy liberal, and we all know a liberal will freek on anything that a republican puts into action say that it is in direct violation of human rights and our rights as americans..... Its sounds so much like what the conservatives do when a liberal does something dosn't it? Maybe a little like this whole health care thing thats happening at the moment. I'm so glad that I'm an indipendant sometimes.

 I miss camp, a lot......
Not so much the work, and yet yes the work. Maybe I just miss my friends. No its not just my friends its camp like the place, the work, the lack of sleep, the food, the socal interaction, the (dare I say) cleaning, the responsability, the feeling that you really where just fucking amazing!, and ofcorse the friendships. I miss it all. My heart aches at the thought of it. I remember how at night I would go down to the beach and just sit and listen to the waves rolling into shore, and feel the crisp air blowing off of the cool dark waters, and the sight of a bright glowing moon hovering over the water casting its glare on the lake. I miss the excursions to St. Cloud and eating at the Olive Garden, and going over to Buffalo and catching a flick in their quante movie theater, and going to Maddigin's for some Kereoke. I miss it all. I want to be back. Home is where the Heart is, I left my heart on the shore of Ceader Lake.

 I think a combination of Pok'emon and the X-Files is taking over my life. My preams have consisted of trying to catch extratarestrial beings and ghosts and Agent Mulder's arse and groinal regons..... ok that one is actually more recent than the others. But some times I'll wake up in a panic thinking that I didn't save my game on the Pok'emon and will have to redo 20 min of levaling which ever pok'emon it is at the time. What the hell is wrong with me? seriously? What the Hell? I just had a thought could it possibly be a simple distractor? taking my thoughts away from things that have been stressing me out like moving out and school, and getting a god damnd job? maybe but then again, I have no Idea.

 I am fucking head over heals for David Fucking Duchovny! I want every god damnd part of him! I'm getting stimulated just writing about it! DAMN JD CLAM THE FUCK DOWN!!! Ok I'm good, don't worry nothing inapropriate happend.

 Is there a point to this blog today??? No I don't think that there is.

 James and myself went out yesterday and got our outfits for Halloween! I was amazed to find a trenchcoat for 3 dollers! Thank what ever you belevein for thrift stores! All I need is the shoes, the hair, and the make up and yours truly will be Secial Agent Dana Scully! I'll post pics don't worry you will see this!

 I have nothig more to say!
bye lovies
JD

I'm just gunna' roll myself into a big ball and die!    My......my.




PS. DAVID PICS!!!!!!!!

Okay just one more for the road.  : )

I want to be the very best like no one ever was!

 Have you ever felt like your choaking for breath because the enviroment that you live in is sucking the air out of the room? Well if you have then you'll understand how I'm feeling at the moment. After living away at camp for like 2 months and although it was only two months I can no longer stand living with my parents. I have said this for some time now but before I realize that it was only because I felt as though life was moving forward and I wasn't. But now I  have grown (in my opinon anyway) and now require my own living space. Not the fair sized bedroom in the dungeon like basement. Even my parents characteristics are plunging that metiphorical knife deeper into my scull. My Dad I am begining to become more tolerent with, but my Mom and drive a gold fish away.
 School is going as well as it can for going on to the theird week. I didn't have my Home Land Security class tonight though, on the account that it is Labor Day. Although I'm kinda bummed because I don't have it next week eather. The actual text books I have to read are turning out to be horrendus! Except the Juvenile Delinquency one mainly because I find it facinating, the others though could kill. My Community Policing is the worst, imagin a book with no pictures explaining that community policing is that the community is the police and the police are the community, riviting... My Introduction to Home Land Security book is a bit better than that it has pictures and was written and published by the republican party, Oh and did I mention that they practicly make it sound as though George W. Bush is god?, again riviting...
 Life in genreal has been just alright, I got totaly blasted on thursday night. I'm tellin' yeah don't have a Vodka Martinii when you're soaber, they're dangerous. Other wise I had like 4 ammereto and cokes, and I would have been fine to drive back home if it had just been that because I had stopped drinking at 10pm. But that damn martinii just kicked my ass.
 I'm starting to think hard about Halloween at this point in time. It has always been one of my favorite hollidays mainly cuz you get to dress up. I'm thinking of maybe doing Richard Simmons, but that costume would be freekin' cold. I gave James an idea though as going as Mulder and Scully, which I think would be amazing! Expesally seeing as how I would be Scully! but then again I don't know any suggestions for cosutmes guys? There was another one I was just thinking of but I totaly forgot what it was. Oh well.
 I need to find a roommate. The coast of driving down to Minneapolis and back is getting to be to much! I also need to find a job down there too, there are plenty of returants I could apply at. I did get an application from Hard Rock but my pen expolded so now I have to get another one. I also applyed at the Tansportation Security Agency today, so we'll see what happens with that.
 I remeber what the other costume I was thinking of was. I was thinking of going as James from Team Rocket from the Pokemon TV show. That would be kinda cool. I started playing my old Pokemon Red game again this summer and now its gotten to the point where I want to trade pokemon, so I went out to the local pawn shop that I just realized that we had and found the original Pokemon Blue! and a link cable! but the cable turned out to not work proporly so I returned it. But now I don't have the pokemon from pokemon blue and it was a sad day. I have cought Mew though in red. But I want Bulbisur and squirtle!
 Well thats all I gess.

Untill next time.
JD

So surrender now or prepare to fight!

Couscous, Cookies, Crakers, Hummus, and Ice Cream: an accout of my weekend.

 Hello!

Okay so this is my first blog post so wooo! Its mildly exciting. So yeah I had a fairly good weekend it mostly consisted of me sitting around, but somethings did happen... Well let me start off by saying that it was my parents 25th anniversery on tuesday, so they went up to Two Harbors for the weekend. so I pretty much had the house to myself (well except for the 2 cats and the dog). For me my weekend actualy started on thursday because I only go to school Mon-Wens. And its kindof turning into a weekly thing that I go out to this backwoods bar called shooters every thursday for karaoke. I go with my cousin Elizebeth (by the way I'm changing up all of the names of people I know for like security perposes, so the only one who you will actualy know the real name to is me, JD). Well we hang out have a few drinks and a few laughs. I have to admitt that thats not the only reason that I go there, or that its even the main reason. You see Elizebeth has this hott little friend named Simon who is gay too. In thinking about it its actually a bit funny that this backwooks bar would just so happen to have 3 to 4 gay guys. Well any way Beth has been kinda trying to get us hooked up, although its more on his end because if it was totally up to me we would have been dating since the moment I set eyes on him. But its taken  a little while to get me out of my shell and reallys start to talk to him this last thursday is when we really started talking. So thursday was good and fun, but man I was so pooped on friday I don't know why, I had only had 3 drinks the night before so it wasn't that I had a hang over or anything like that. Around 10 am I started to read somemore on the book that I was working on which was Julie and Julia by Julie Powell. I got that finished up by about 11:30 and decided to go see the movie of it which had just gotten into town. The first show was at 12:20 so naturally I get there at about 12:15. Well when I got there the ticket girl told me that the movie had not yet arrived and should be there soon, so seeing as how I didn't have anything else going on I just sat around untill it got there. It didn't get there untill 1:10, there where about 7 of us in the theater waiting for it to start then 1:45 rolls around and the movie still hasn't strarted, by this time I have already finished my popcorn and watched all of the preflix crap at least a million times over. The ticket girl came out and told us all that the film was having trouble automaticly starting so they were trying to induce it to start manualy. About 5 min later it finaly started. It was an alright movie not great, Meryl was amazing as always, Amy Adams shouldn't have been in the movie as fas as I'm conserned she just didn't suit the part of Julie whom I had grown mildly attatched to seeing as how I had pretty much just finished the book. Then I ended up later that night watching old episodes of the X-Files, and Ghost Hunters. which was a bad idea seeing as how I was all alone for the weekend. Saturday progressed in much the same way, except for the whole movie fiasco. I had downloaded a shit tone of podcasts by the Eat This Hot Show bunch which consist of Madg Winesteen, Vrea Charles, and Wanda Wisdom, whom are all funny as fuck! I was getting a little bored by like idk 5 or 6 that so I called my cousin James and he was going to come over and we were going to watch some movies or something. But I ended up getting a better offer to do something so I cancled my plans with James and went to the Gay 90's with none other than Simon! Now I'm not a huge fan of the 90's but it was so much better there on staterday night that any of the other time I have been there. I figure that its because I am now 21 and don't have to shuffle in with all of the snotty ass 18 + group. The drag that night was grade A as well, it was honestly the first time that I really enjoyed myself there. well untill Simon and this other guy John that we met there started making out in the happy hour room. So needless to say I wasn't to happy. At one the bar closed ane we headed back home and Simon just gabbed on and on about stuff thats happend to him in his life, like going out to california and calarado and just other things like that. He was pretty drunk but I noticed that he progressivly became more sober. I was the one driving back home by the way, and I hadn't had anything to drink that night. So we get back to his sister's house (which is where he is staying) and I go to say good bye, but he holds me back for a second looks at me and says "this may sound weird, but . . . do you want to play?" and well dot dot dot (Mamma Mia refereance). Sunday consisted of primaraly what the other two had as well, but I did get some studying done too. I also got to talk to my wife via skype last night and another friend from camp. when I say wife its kinda this ongoing joke that we have so no actual relationship type stuff going on, besides I'm gay I just couldn't bring myself to do, well to have sexual intercorse with a lady. And well we talked for like a good hour or more and then we said good bye. But damn I was hungry so I went up to the kitchen and got some food and broght it down to my room and had a little feast of couscous, cookies, crackers, hummus, and Ice cream as I watched the actual Julia Childs whip up some tasty looking dishes on the youtube. All I could think was that this was an amazing ending to an interestinly amazing weekend.
Well I need to be off now I have to go to school!

JD

Bon App`etit